“Do it with prayer.”
This was my focus this month, and whoa baby, did this month ever need prayer.
Our house search started. Before we found the house we made an offer on, I prayed with my husband that we would find the right one. We only saw a handful of properties and the one I hated, my husband loved. We went back and forth about it and I agreed – begrudgingly – to tour it again. We spend an hour at the property, walking all over, inside and outside. I didn’t like it because of the “line of sight” on some of the angles. The house did not speak to me.
But this time it did.
Was it perfect? No. It lacks the large garden tub bathroom suite that was on our “must have” list – another thing we left off the last time we looked for houses. It was built when I was in high school, so it’s been there awhile. With some minor customization, it could really sing. My husband made a good point: it was the perfect size for us and outside of the garden tub, it had everything we needed. That’s what hit me. Needed. Our giant house was a want, not a need. And with our mindset of minimalism, using what we have for the glory of the Gospel, consuming less and the promise of cheaper bills/taxes/upkeep/more travel: I agreed. It’s also a mile away from my ocean and a kayaker’s paradise.
I had a panic attack, rather severely, as we negotiated the price and did the inspection: the inspection revealed nothing major. And so we move forward. I’m still a bit unsettled about this whole process, especially since we’re under contract on that house and ours hasn’t hit the market yet. We can float the 2 mortgages for a few months….but nothing long term. The market is red hot here, so I’m hoping for a quick sell. More prayer there too.
My loved one who has struggled with alcoholism, fell off the wagon rather unceremoniously, as expected. It was terrible, the words they threw at me while on a high. I officially stopped trusting anything they said and threw my anger back at them. That hit home. Things have been strange between us ever since. This person sought the advice and friendship of another Christian who has had a successful recovery and I hope that “sponsorship” holds water and keeps them on the straight and narrow. It’s sickening to watch from my perspective, but hardships can build strength and character – the Lord can turn this tragedy into a praise.
Prayer for this person has been on my lips all month.
And for my wayward niece. And the girl I’m sponsoring for confirmation. The friend with the troubled marriage. The friend who was on the receiving end of spiritual abuse. My family. A stick built structure. And for someone who thinks drinking a liter of wine in under an hour is totally okay.
They haven’t been long prayers. Or even all that consistent. But it made me stop and remember: do it with prayer.